Black Eyed Susan

CSU Channel Islands' Literary Journal

By: Vanessa Rodgers

 

A black eyed beauty

She has long, thin petals

Just enough to round and fringe

Her center, a black pom pom

 

She could disguise a bee in her core,

As it leaves digested pollen, taking and giving

Regurgitations. She’s tender to the touch,

She is not the smell of a new baby’s skin;

Her eye feels dark and freshly

Opens to see a world in a light

That she is never meant to know.

Its depth holds secrets, surfacing.

 

She is not her purple swells,

Yellowing outer edges,

But a still sky of darkness at her core,

Abandoning pastels for veiling guise.

She is the first time innocence meets sin,

Grappling recovery, unsure, aimlessly tenacious.

 

Her shame,

Displayed for all to see what

Polluted skin will never forget;

Her stem stands strong and straight

Unwilling to be masked,

Demanding to be known

To be healed and whole, valued.

 

Black Eyed Susan, who did this to you?

 

She is not like baby’s breath:

She is not quaint, pure, accentuating

Other more vivacious flowers.

Drawing attention, she breathes forest fires over

Twigs and brush, she is not brushed aside,

Not overlooked by baby smiles.

 

She rarely really smiles,

But when she does

She demands all eyes in the vicinity.

No, the black eyed susan is not a baby anything at all;

She is not sweet, shallow, breath without history.

She is fierce, and striking, and full of mystery.

 

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